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As in intoxicants? If so, stimulants all the way. I don’t enjoy relaxation.

I vary between the two. Try to keep my personality like water, able to fit into any situation if possible. Success rate is a little better than middling.

i would live the rest of my life in an opiate bliss if i could, but i'm too neurotic for unabashed addiction

Weed and alcohol made me fat so I had to cut them out. Stims are cool but the crashes are tough and I value my sleep too much to really "abuse" them (I took a reasonable dose of daily adderall for a few years). Nicotine struck a perfect balance but it is an evil evil chemical. LSD was cool until I took too much one time and fried my brain a little bit. Ketamine is alright.

Drugs are great when you can keep them a rare luxury, but that's difficult.

>>9573
In terms of personality, I am a somewhat quiet, non-reactive person, introverted but not socially inept, drawn to moments of longing or absorbed thought. Like probably most here, I enjoy learning about pretty much everything. I am a closet perfectionist but in reality painfully mediocre and doomed to a nothingburger life. I am a Renaissance [person]/ jack of all trades in a world where that has less than zero utility. I like to think I'm an okay person but other people seem to react very strongly negatively to me, which has been my cross to carry in this life.

As for drugs, I dislike the feeling of stimulants so much I do not even drink coffee or teas with caffeine. I would probably be more of an alcohol user if it did not trigger my seizures. I am definitely a cannabis person, a drug (in its unadulterated form) which matches and accentuates all of those traits I listed above. That is what I use it as, an accentuating agent. If you are thinking that cannabis usage has formed my personality traits, I would like to point out I did not touch the drug until well into my 20s, when my personality was already developed, though I will admit to its infamous calming effect shaping me in a more subtle fashion (I like to think this is maturity instead). I did LSD a couple of times but was not extremely impressed, plus its stupidly long duration means I can only ever take it between 8 and 10 AM. In the future I would like to try mushrooms and perhaps other psychedelics at a low dosage.

I wonder where the discrepancy comes from; between people who take drugs to directly counteract their traits and those who take drugs to accentuate them.

Sorry, meant to reply to the OP.

Schizoid and neither. I drink a glass or two a week which I view as a kind of ticket cost to socializing, which I don't even want to do, but have conceded is necessary. If I need to feel better, or just abstractly want blissful experiences to stave off existential angst, I masturbate or meditate. I'd be willing to try mushrooms largely because I think it might help me make more progress in the latter.

>>9599

Are you like actually diagnosed with ScPD? Feels contradictory to be on a forum whilst being schizoid.

As I've learned to understand the effects of drugs on my body, my mind, and my locus of control, I've learned how to control them. Weed focuses me provided I have intention. I think it focuses a lot of people, but that they focus on the wrong thing. Alcohol is the great social drug, never drink when alone, only drink with people. Never socialize only to drink. LSD is something I may never try again, but I'm not sure that I need to. Set and setting really is true here, but I do think that having a "bad" trip can be productive. Mushrooms are similar for LSD to me, but I'll probably take them again. Being outside on mushrooms is such a nice experience, the only problem is understanding the dosages.

>>9607
Yes. I don't know how that would be contradictory. If anything, spending a bunch of time on forums as a release valve 20 years ago instead it becoming an noticeable crisis point with my parents is how I became this way. You can also have a personality disorder and be someone taking steps to correct it. That doesn't mean you don't have it, just that you aren't one of the people who wallow online identifying with it instead of willing to get better.

>>9577
>I would probably be more of an alcohol user if it did not trigger my seizures.
Are you the anon who once told me in the dreaming thread to get my "awake dreaming" to get checked out?

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>>9631
Yes that was me, hopefully I was wrong and your symptoms were benign?

>>9633
I had a work up done and a shrug was my answer.

I always thought I was some form of adhd/autism but every time I've taken stims it's been a disaster. then a couple years ago I found out I have a gene that makes my body hold onto too much dopamine

>>9641
disaster how?

>>9645
I'd overheat and get nosebleeds

dropped acid the other day.

>>9942
I have some more to say: I like psychedelics, but I think I fear that they are representative of a materialist truth (i.e., everything is just chemicals, man). When I was younger, I got very interested in the power of mushrooms and LSD. They really seemed like portals into another dimension or vibrational level, uplifting the banal and moving back to the curtain just a little. Then, I thought about how they are like a magnet being pressed to an old TV. They just cause the sensational to go haywire for a little bit. Is that profound, or is that just a mistake? Now, obsessing with psychedelic drugs feels juvenile. But the experience is still very beautiful. I looked at many trees and had fun with my friends. Maybe that's all it is.

Geolocating myself with this but I live in a state with no legal weed so if you don't have a dealer or want to hike it across state lines you get these hemp-derived THC drinks. I don't have any flower in the house and have cut down weed use significantly, so if I desire a buzz I grab two cans from the corner store. Chug the first sip the second and it's like an edible with mixed results.

Picrel probably has the cleanest-feeling high of all the brands. Makes sense as it was the first big brand on the market. I've tried others and they feel more like small dosage amphetamines than THC. Your mind darts from one screen to the next, I feel fidgety, unable to focus, etc. The other weekend I drank some awful tasting Cheech & Chong branded drinks and they sent me into a four day long dopamine spiral. It's nice for going to the lake though.

>>10029
lol I see those cans at Total Wine and I live in a legal state so I've never wanted to try them. Hemp Bill being struck down might result in those being banned come November btw.

>>9572
i thought about it and i'd also accept a benzo addiction

Passionate and quick to get deeply into things and then drop them at a moment's notice, but usually with at least some kind of self-justification. Unable to sit still or go without talking for long. I am very extroverted, but in most social situations, I find myself acting like a freak to make people laugh. My friend recently said he wouldn't hypothetically date me because I am an "insane person" (I disagree).

Related to all the above, I am a drug addict. I regularly use stimulants. I take pregabalin once a week (technically a downer, but it makes me hypomanic). I buy a blister of tapentadol (an opioid) every six months or so. I had to quit ketamine because I didn't want to develop bladder issues and can't control my usage.

>>10289

Oh, I forgot to actually answer. Stimulants.

>>10298

Ty

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I was a fentanyl addict.
Don't use cartel drugs.
Stop giving those bad dudes money.
Grow your own shrooms or something.
Just stop the coke.